Hello everyone, I trust that everyone is doing great and things are going the way it's supposed to be.

As for me, things are not exactly the way it's supposed to be. With reports still at hand and a heavy week ahead, there's seems like the light at the tunnel which appear so near has became yet so far.

Updated a couple of minor details in my blog yesterday and was considering whether anot to blog but decided to do some work before my work load gets out off hand...

There are times, i wish i don't have to study and of course there are time i wish i could just relax at the beach over a glass of cold lemonade and just enjoy the sea breeze with a labrador by my side. How heavenly but yet so void.

I've got to say that i'm feeling down over the events that has taken place in my life. Some of which is public while most of them are in private. How true can the statement of " the greatest enemy in life is yourself"!!!

And the greatest battlefield is in our mind! Can you image the struggle that's going thro inside my brain. Something, i wish i could just turn off and go and sleep and everything gonna be alright.

Yeah, i remember once sly roger said that God will not take away the feelings i am going thro now. He will not take them away but He wan to satisfy my feelings. For he gave me feelings for good.

Yesterday, i went to bed with a mind full of thoughts. All the homeworks, reports, problems that i faced, etc etc. I couldn't go to bed ut eventually i dosed off... I dream of tragic events happening.

I was out with my mum and suddenly, I began a tiger and attacked her. I didn't eat her up but instead just ate her feet. The following day in school, the police came over to school and asked for me for further investigation. I was feeling guilty, the same feeling when you've done something wrong and was about to get caught.

However, at the time, i was having PE at some stadium so the two policemen were seated while we did P.E... The PE activity was to crawl across the basketball court on fours. Everyone did the activity but while i was doing, my mind was as if there was an explosion of thoughts going thro my head.

While i did my crawl, i recalled hearing the teacher, Dr. Ong saying, "I guess i wouldn't be seeing you for the next lesson afterall" and then i saw my secondary school friend, Marcus Cheong completing his crawl.

Then somehow, Yong Ling came up to me and said:" I believe that you're innocent" but i knew inside of me that i wasn't so i just smiled and waked away. Then finally, I spoke to a friend and instructed him specifically to inform Jia Ling to pray in tongues then pray for me... And the class left for lessons and i wake up.

Well, the dream seems like a reflection of the problems and distress i am doing thro. I don't know what it means but don't look too optimistic yeah...

Oh, yesterday i had an encounter with God on the way to school! I was sleeping on my bed and my maid bugged me to go for lesson. I don't know why but somehow, i angrily changed and got out of my house and left for class. It was around 1230pm and my next lesson is at 1pm so that means i am going to be late.

As i walked to the MRT, i was telling God that there's nothing i could do about time but i simply prayed that by his grace, i could rush school by 115pm and that Mr. Ho will not get too upset by it.

Praise the Lord, somehow, the time slowed but and the train sped up and i got there by 120pm and Mr. Ho respected me and didn't scolded me. But that's not the highlight.

It was on the way to school, while inside the train, God asked me if i think i am smart. I though for a while and i said i was. Then He asked me, what will a wise man trade for a love of his life. And i answered everything. Then told me that there is someone has loved me so much that he gave his life for me so that i can have a relationship with him.

Then He presented to me the example whereby a lover baked a cake and gave his gf a surprise by turning up at her house and she was touched and felt loved.Then God went on to asked me if i will be touched if my gf will to advertise her love for me at suntec mega display screen. well, of course i would be touch and love her even more.

At time point of time, God told me that He has advertised his love for me all over the world and millions of people are reading his confession every day.

To further prove my foolishness, God asked me what do i think of people who has experience the love but rejected it for something else in the world? My immediate answer was stupid. That was exactly was God was telling me!

Now God asked me if it was too much to ask for if a man who has gave his life out of love to have a relationship with the one he died for. Yet people in the world are rejecting him. God showed me that He don't need or want our money, our gold, our silver. He don't want our houses. All he desires was to have a relationship with me.

but yet i've rejected him, closed the door and harden my heart. Yet he gently knock on the door of my heart. In life, when things don't go right and problems arises, the devil is seating at his throne laughing at our mistakes but Jesus is at the door asking for permission if he could come into our lifes and solve all our problems. He says: stretch out your hands and i will give you life!

he is gently knocking on our hearts now. Now God asked if we will open our lifes and hearts to him once again.